Thank you following this blog into 2018! I really appreciate all of the support I have already received for it, and I cannot wait to reach out and meet new people! Please share this blog all around as much as you can. I hope to reach as many people as I can.
Well for anyone who doesn’t know me, my name is Maia. My Korean name is Miso, which in Korea means “smile.” I am a 22-year-old college student majoring in Mass Communications and minoring in Spanish. I’m not exactly sure what I want t do for my career. I’ve jumped between the ideas of being a news producer, a media producer, or pretty much anything having to do with the media.
I grew up in a very small town in Mississippi full of a lot of close minded people, but I never let that stand in my way. I grew up with anxiety and depression. I now have PTSD from a tornado that I was in back in January 2017. I have body dysmorphic disorder meaning I will never be satisfied with my appearance. I was born with an enlarged heart and asthma. From that, I developed an immune disorder where I am way more susceptible to diseases. As I grew older, I developed a mild form of anemia. This all eventually led to me having a hormone disorder which resulted in me being put on birth control. Since I was diagnosed with PTSD my doctor prescribed me Valium.
Now, you may be asking, “Why is she talking about everything in her life.”
I’ll tell you why. When I was in middle school and high school I was afraid of who I was a person. I thought I was an absolute freak, and I hated myself. I didn’t really have anyone to run to other than my mother, but sometimes that’s not good enough for a hormone crazy teenager. I found blogs and YouTube vloggers that talked about their illnesses and mental illnesses openly to let others know that they are not alone in this world. Because believe me when you have anxiety from the age of three and you realize that the other kids aren’t obsessively worried about if every move they make is acceptable you start to realize you’re different. These bloggers and vloggers have helped me immensely in being okay with my illness/mental illness.
I started this blog because I wanted to challenge myself. I have a bad habit of not being able to finish things once I start, and I wanted this to be a way of me breaking that habit. Now, I know there will be some days that I miss, but I promise I will always make them up. I want this blog to be a glimmer of hope for people who may think that they are not good enough or that they don’t have a purpose.
My main inspiration for doing this blog actually came from a YouTube personality/vlogger. Her name is Joan Kim. She decided to do a vlog for everyday of 2017, and she beyond succeeded. I watched all of her vlogs, and when I watched her last one and saw how happy she was about completing it I felt motivated to do something like that. She is also a very positive person after spending a few years feeling really depressed. She decided to pick herself up and live everyday happy. She picked up her camera, got out of her house, and vlogged her life for a year. I will link her main channel and her vlog channel for anyone who wants to check her out!
I want to try to find happiness in everyday of my life. I mentioned this before, but my name means smile. I want to use this blog to show everyone that even though you may live with that awful looming mental illness, you can fight it and show it that it will not win. We are stronger than this illnesses that try to break us down. It can be as small as having coffee for breakfast or as big as a huge life event i.e. I am graduating in May. Find something everyday in your life this year to smile about. I urge people to answer my daily question everyday I ask it at the end of my posts. I hope you all follow this blog! I also have a Twitter, Insagram, and Facebook page set up for this blog that are linked on my main blog page. Thank you for your support and I hope we can all grow together in 2018!
So, what made you smile today? 🙂